I haven't looked photogenic since I hit puberty. I think I look horrible in photographs. I think I have finally resigned to the fact that I will never look pleasant enough for the camera so please don't offer to take my picture.

The only kind of people I attract all most of the time in profile sites are weird looking uncles with unsightly body shapes who are way past their prime and probably only have lecherous intentions towards the me in the pictures taken some five years ago. Occasionally there would be a few straggling nerds who don't know they are fishing in dangerous waters. I think I have finally resigned to the fact that profile sites are just for feeding my eyes and not really for the benefit of any potential relationships.

IRC is something I have given up on for some years already. It's always the same thing, people looking for sex, people having meaningless conversations and people with nothing better to do than to pick a fight with someone else online so they could tell other people how dramatic their otherwise dull lives are. I go back occasionally just to attempt to prove myself wrong. I think I have resigned to the fact that some things, IRC especially, never change.

I have given up on clubbing even longer than IRC. Some people call it fun, I see it as a health hazard. Gay clubs especially appeals the least to me. It's just the same old/new people living in an illusion that that is the only place where they can be 'themselves' (disclaimer: author's own opinion only). I think I have resigned to the fact that most gay people will always prefer to live in disillusionment.

My original intention of going to gym was to change someone's perception towards me, and then I did it because it makes me too tired at the end of the day to remember anything. As my stamina and strength increased, I then did it because I got nothing better to do in the evenings anyway, and now I am continuing with it because I am just plain hooked. I think I have resigned to the fact that I will never be able to change the perception of that someone nor can I stop other people from thinking that I go to gym for vanity or cruising purposes.

I can never go out with another gay guy on a 1 on 1 basis without facing some kind of scandal or rumour or assumption that I am dating that person. I think I have resigned to the fact that I will probably have to publish a standard Q&A everytime I am caught in such a situation.

No one ever believes that I am not a sex crazed person despite the fact that I probably only have sex only once a year... if I am lucky WITH a person I am dating or in a relationship with. I haven't been attached for two years and I haven't had a date in ages. Just because I have a tendency to crack sex related jokes doesn't mean I think about sex 24/7. On the brighter side, someone is in danger of losing a month's worth of salary over a bet that I can't stay celibate for a year. I think I have resigned to the fact that people never realise the reason why they think I am a nymphomaniac is because they themselves are thinking about sex all the time.

I think I have resigned to the fact that I feel resigned all the time.